where are you true friend?

"somehow sometimes i feel like i've got no friend. :'| thank you for everything friendSSS."

that's how my facebook's status sounds like, about an hour ago. i didn't intended to gain any attention from anyone, but i was just too emotional at that moment. we call that as reflex action in Biology. yeah.

and not long after that, i've posted another status

 "dear Allah, i beg for you to give me at least one true friend who can go through thick and thin with me. :'(  "

and it has raised the curiousity among the concerned former schoolmates of mine.

thanks Ayudafitri for inspiring me with your calming words.

"there's a lot of friends we'll meet in IPT, Tin. 
we always share everything with them. 
remind them every single thing. 
make their life easier with us.
but then, why are we doing all that? because we want to have the same right? 
we are hoping they'll treat us like we do, right? thats why we don't get it Tin.

coz we're not sincere.

we expect for something good from them.

so,after this, try to being Ikhlas. Redha with all the things we do for them. our helps.

and by that time, He will give us a friend to make our life easier like we do to others.

cheer up. FRIENDS are not the one who can control our life, isn't it?

live your life lahh "

whoops, sorry i've cut her saying on some sensitive issue. heh~

yes, i admit that sometimes i think that i've sacrificed so much things for them, i'm not IKHLAS.

that's the root of all this things to happen.

 i'm not good enough for them, and i'm not strong enough to face all these, but i'll try to be one someday.

alhamdulillah, i still got a shoulder to cry on, even though we're so far apart.

syukran.